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Name: Sean
Location: PG County, Maryland, United States
Birthday: 7/3/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: Christina Ricci, Sleepy Hollow, Nightmare Before Christmas, The Corpse Bride, Buffy, Angel, Tru Calling, Birds of Prey, bloodletting, tattoos, cutting, mutilation, dead bodies, body piercings, Eliza Dushku, t.A.T.u.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  faithfulpsycho
Member Since:
10/4/2005
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| 2007 was a bad year for me. Due to a good deal of many things. And while I've grown in a huge way and can no longer be what I was when it was then, I can't help but feel as if I'm slipping in the landslide of life but in a far worse way. All I do is drink and sleep these days. That can't be good for me. This 'off' time from work is turning out to be the worst thing that could have ever happened me because when I got a job I made that job into my identity and I'm quite blank and empty without working. Not to mention that I'm very broke with bills that do need to be paid.
I've been watching Dharma and Greg lately with Erin. Just a feel good show for a time I need to feel good.
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| So. Saturday was one of the worst days I've ever had. Friday afternoon and early Sunday sucked too.
God. Things in my life need to get better soon or I'll have to take things to the extreme.
And not in a fun snow boarding way. | | |
| Could I be lost forever?
Ugh, life is life and that is never good and true and easy but even though I'm fully aware of that it pisses me off.
I'm currently at work while I write this, which would be naughty but I'm fairly good at my job so I'll still complete all my tasks for the day. I'm so bad with money. Because I just go right through it even though I really need to start saving...I need a notebook and a camera and a bartenders liscense and new glasses and a dentist and enough money to escape to California. It's all caving in.
I could drown from the sheer craziness that is my life. It's all so fluid and temporary which is what I hate. Even though I'm more fluid than anything I know, I can adapt. I'm a water sign so I can just travel through rocks and oceans but I do need something a bit more steady than myself. Which is weird, as I'm more steady than my entire household. Solid.
I want to escape. To freedom and the beach and the sand and the sun.
Live my life out in colour ignoring the rumours and the sordidness that surrounds me now.
I don't think I'll survive the storm that's coming. | | |
| Is that I don't make enough to fund my preferred lifestyle. I require a job with huge paychecks but this job can't require too much work because there are other things that I am supposed to be doing.
I need a brand new notebook computer, and a laptop and a microphone. I want to make a hugely fancy html website that can host my podcasts where I speak and offer awesome music once a week, and have cool conversations with cool friends. I also need a camera so that I can host my photography and my own modelling portfolio. Then I want to list my current stories and ideas and my poems and drawings. I'm born to do more than to sit in front of this computer just dreaming about what I want to do. You know? | | |
| Life is dull and work is almost over. Just taking care of a few more things before I depart to get ready for a potentially very fun evening. I dunno what to write. For the first and hopefully last.
I should write on here more often. | | |
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